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In an hour of weakness, you'd still believe; to try
Do this one thing for me, make up some stupid story.
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Sean, 310892ngjunkit@hotmail.com Several years and we were right, The things we did and tried, Experiencing different waves and tides, Even if it meant we’ve cried, It’s inevitable for us, To begin to rust, Breaking the thread wasn’t bad, One of us will bring the thread, One will set us back, Soon, We’ll run on the same track; Should we always miss the chance to see? Beneath the mirror lies a scene Bringing us into a whirl Is that what we deserve? We all know we each own an Otherworld — Just a guy behind the smiles
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Wednesday, March 16, 2011
- . - Dead tired. I didn't do much for my own part for the YEP trip. Guilty. Going out everyday, and everyday coming home just to end up quarreling with my parents. . It's sucks to fight with parents everyday. Exhausting. I know I sound weak or cliche, but imma need of someone to be there. . Thinking about going to Cambodia, I just realized I'm seriously going to be alone. Honestly, I feel damn sad leaving Singapore even if it's for the mere two weeks. Without my own friends. And apparently the only friend I could call my own isn't. I just don't know how to tell anyone this perpetual sadness and fear I've been feeling. . Never in my life have I been that sad. Yeah. I've opened up. Emotionally unblocked. . If any one sees this, listen to the whole song. Exactly what I'm feeling now. I'd wish you would dare to walk me home. Please, I don't want to fight the world alone. Just start talking to me. Monday, March 14, 2011
For the broken hearted. I really can't believe that you are gone feelings of misery I`m feeling alone how can i sleep at night oh please hurry home let me apologize cause i know i was wrong. Why did you leave me alone. Saturday, March 12, 2011
Finale. It's was before the holidays we first met. During so, you were the only one kind enough to celebrate my birthday despite the exams. From so on, we talked about things from day to night. Hanging out day and night. Talking about the future like we had a clue, but never planned that one day, I'll be losing you. . Obviously, you've forgotten about the five year pact. The pact that says we'll still be good friends. I tried keeping that, but you're not. Previously, I should have told you how much you meant to me as a good friend and now I've paid the price. . Here I thought, we can keep all our promises, like it's us against the world. But you turned your back for some chick. Like whatever we said was pure nonsense. Seriously, I thought you were the one of the most dependable, loyal, considerate, understanding person who won't turn your back on your friends. But apparently after our last talk, you lied. . If given another chance, I would seriously try to make you stay. So I don't have to say you were the one that got away. and tell everyone that now you're just a memory. A past. A story. A story that ended based on lies and pain, and that the five year pact never ever came to light. I gotta walk away first. It still hurts. If you'd treated me like a real friend, you would have done something about it. But you didn't. This is my final post for you, dude. A finale. Tuesday, March 8, 2011
- . - Can't understand why that feeling of hate arises. I'm not suppose to care or what anymore, right? . Perhaps I can't do anything. Sean, you can't give up or hold on. This is probably worse than having either one of the two. . I don't want to have to always give in. But I always do. And that's why maybe this time it's especially painful. . I don't get why you can just look me in the eye, and pretend nothing happens. Or pretend that you're still living a perfect life. I don't get why you can lie about what you said before, and not commit. I don't get why you think I always have to give in. . Just disappear from my life completely, or come back. Don't stay within my sight. Just this once. . Monday, March 7, 2011
- . - Going out everyday without exercising. My fats all piling up sia. I hate you. Friday, March 4, 2011
- When time's up - Four weeks. Being literally ignored sucks. I won't ever make the same mistake again. . . . School's over. I feel sad that I'm not able to take my train rides with Del and disturb her for another 4-5 months hehe. I'm sad that I wont be able to see my classmates during that period I miss all the stupid things we do in school I miss thinking about what we should eat after lesson ends. I miss waiting for lessons to end. I miss sleeping in lectures. . . . But I'm never gonna miss you. Ever. Leaving someone heart broken and sad is what you guys did. Never even tryin' these past few weeks. Making me feel weak and vulnerable. Making me feel less like a man. Making me feel desperate for help Making me feel irritating because I feel like a pest. Making me feel alone after two years of being together. Making me feel pathetic for needing someone when it's suppose to be natural. Making me feel lost when i always had that perfect vision. Making me feel that broken pieces of my life couldn't be salvaged after approaching so many people. And I mean MANY. Making me shed unnecessary tears that I now thought stupid. And the worst, Making me feel crappy because you guys only wallow in your self pity and insecurities and lies. But through all these, I found life outside of that stupid, self pity, low life that I lead. Better friends and better people. A change in my life, a good one. After what I did for you guys, I feel used. You're evil, that's what you are. And truthfully, I'm so much better without you these past few weeks. Finally feel numb to feel anything right now. Hope you guys enjoy each other's lone companion cause i can only describe you as pathetic. Thanks and bye. Im not apologizing for lashing out because you guys are the worst. . . Anyways, enough of my anger. I'm tortured enough these past few weeks. EXAMS ARE OVER. 2 YEARS OFFICIALLY PAST. FREEDOM FOR 2 WEEKS. yeah. Class outing yesterday. Singing todayyyyy Soccer tmrrrrrrr. Life's good. Tuesday, March 1, 2011
- Two down - Maybe we all need to tell lies at some point of time. . . Where's the grey area in the world which we all once seek? All there's left is black and white. Feel like our world's been infected. . . Exams' in a couple of hours. Liberation after that. Till' then, stay low and keep them waiting. - . - Omg. Cambodia trip in two weeks Internship for four months (Please be good) Japan/cruise for 1-2 weeks! Hyperventilating. Excited. Wheeeee. |
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I'm losing patience, waiting on you to believe
Cause.. I'm just restless |
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