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In an hour of weakness, you'd still believe; to try
Do this one thing for me, make up some stupid story.
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Sean, 310892ngjunkit@hotmail.com Several years and we were right, The things we did and tried, Experiencing different waves and tides, Even if it meant we’ve cried, It’s inevitable for us, To begin to rust, Breaking the thread wasn’t bad, One of us will bring the thread, One will set us back, Soon, We’ll run on the same track; Should we always miss the chance to see? Beneath the mirror lies a scene Bringing us into a whirl Is that what we deserve? We all know we each own an Otherworld — Just a guy behind the smiles
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Sunday, February 27, 2011
- Impossible - People change, but they change back to what they were. You'll never know one person's history, or even his/her past. Because it could very well be something he/she intentionally hides from you. It really sucks to realize that you've done so much for him/her and realize what kind of a person he/she truly is. Deceit, lies, tragedy. One thing though, it doesn't matter if I got deceived. I just hope you won't be the one at the receiving end though, looking at how you're putting so much on the line now. I really miss you guys. . . Life's good. Studying outside everyday beats cooping up at home. 2 more days till the end of biology! Literally have been studying almost everywhere. Please let the paper be an easy one :D - . - You're awesome :D I need a doctor. Thursday, February 24, 2011
- . - Polaroid :D Biology is srsly dry. Why study our own body? It doesn't help with what we're doing in our course. Bleah. One more week! Just one more, and I'm no longer a year 2 student! :D Down side: you're getting older. Crap. Monday, February 21, 2011
-.- Leading the low life these days has been painfully calm. Leaving the school compound after the law test was, sad. I thought about the times whether I did make a big mistake. And I thought I had them figured out. It's true though, about my life being taken over completely by what's his name. What I realize is that I'm holding on to nothing. Three more weeks and things would be finally be set in place. With me always being the left one out, I started to doubt everything. Recalling that every memory of mine comes with a price. The never-ending cycle of always being left alone after being the best friend. It sucks to be stuck in a triangle relationship. I thought this would be different, but I never imagined we'd end like this. I'd feel you forget me like how I used to see you breathe. I'd never thought that was the last time our eyes meet. Thought things could change after I did, but it didn't. but it''s okay. Life has its up and down. We're all still growing up now right? I just regret being the one incapable of holding on to what's left of us. Because I can't afford to get hurt once more just waiting for those I call friends. Time doesn't heal all wounds; it deepens the pain. Now it's nice where we're are. I dont wanna waste another day Keeping it inside, it's killing me. Cause' all I ever want it comes right down to you. - 3th March 2011 Saturday, February 19, 2011
- . - Lawlawlawlawlawlawlawlawlawlawlawlaw. Being a lawyer is definitely out of my list of occupations now. . Gymming and going out after next week's test :) Either ways, it hurts. -.- I'm becoming weaker day by day. I just want a happy time in school. A memorable semester. And when I graduate, I don't want to be sad, or even unhappy in the tiniest bit. Time waits for no man. We are all growing up too soon. Perhaps it's time, to let go. Friday, February 18, 2011
- . - People change all the time. They can make you, break you or even leave you. They can find all sorts of reasons to justify their changes in character. But that doesn't mean you have to, Sean. Don't ever change. Wednesday, February 16, 2011
- . - Jokes, life's tiring. You've been gone for so long I'm running out of time, I need a doctor, doctor to bring me back to life. - . - Yeah, sure. I'm always the childish, immature, selfish, inconsiderate, thoughtless, unkind, useless, unreliable, unrealistic, lame, stupid, nonsensical one. Perhaps, then I should give up on what I do for everyone and see how things change. I don't want to think like this, but everyone's giving me the reason to. Perhaps, people see only what they want to see for themselves, never trying to understand what is it like being on the other side. I just messed up my counselling reflections to help my group salvage a stupid project. I have not studied because I seriously have no time, and have to complete another project I have not done anything internship-related because I have to finalize the stupid report I don't understand what is going on, and everyone is refusing to tell me because they assume I know, or understand. I'm getting criticized so heavily by many that I think it's not even worth it. Everyone thinks I'm a hardcore mugger, or slacker which I think is totally contradicting. Everyone's doing things that they think they can do, but apparently I cannot. I have little people to tell this to because the rest always seem to assume the worst of me. People always assume that I know stuff and I don't tell them, when I ALWAYS do. I always try to help others improve by telling them in a casual way, to push them and motivate them when they clearly cant take the hint. Seriously, I cannot handle all this at once. No one's letting me any air to breathe. People have the choice to do all this, but they choose not to. And when they fail to do so, and I did it, they blame me for being a mugger or nerdy. When all they clearly do is procrastinate. Procrastinating is totally up to you, just don't blame me for your faults. Don't use me as a thing that you can throw your tantrum on. I'm seriously sick of it. Everyone's whining about their sad lives and how they have no motivation to live when they clearly have their families and friends. I don't even speak to my family, and even my own friends are doing it to me. I can't find a person to actually understand how I feel. There's basically no air for me to breathe anymore. If one more person says I have studied, or am ready for exams or whatever. Forget about speaking to me. Cause clearly you don't know crap about my feelings. Oh yeah, and if anyone says I know stuff that I dont tell people, you will find out what it means to know nothing at all. And you think I'm childish? Think again. I'm through acting kiddish or funny with anyone. Sean, just deal with it. The world is tired of you. - . - Life's tough, get over it. Please don't let me down now. Tuesday, February 15, 2011
- Wheeee - Excited for the first time in a few weeks! And now can't sleep. Want to watch 200 pounds of beauty :) Monday, February 14, 2011
- . - - A life as a youthful, happy teenager, or a life filled with sorrow? - Months have gone by, and my life has been at it's lowest point it has ever gone. Not only myself, many others too. Has it been too long, that we just cannot take the time to think? To reflect on what has been actually going on these past few months. I lost my way, and evidently many others have as well. Isn't life suppose to be that way? To lose your way, and be able to find the courage to seek out new paths. Many do, but along the way people get lost. A tragedy, to see those abandoned along the way. To see no one has helped them. This year, I lost my way. Admittedly, some helped, and I really appreciated it. But it was not enough. I may have been too demanding, or selfish. But thinking about it, we do not want the cycle to repeat itself do we? To do the same to others, leaving them abandoned. I will try to find my way this time, and I will do it differently. And when the light finally hits your eyes, it will tell you whether you were right. I'm terrified to feel again for the first time. Do I need to risk it all, and come this far just to fall again? - . - Boom. I have no idea what to do now. Just hope some sort of guidance comes along the way. Saturday, February 12, 2011
- After everything - Finally a long, long sleep. . . . But then you also finally wake to find yourself looking at the bigger picture. That things have changed. That one month plus have passed without your knowing. It has been tough, living what has been called a quiet life these past few weeks. Assignments in school have been crazy, but the worst is it has driven apart so many people. . . I'm not too excited about the internship, because the distance itself scares me. And it's not exactly something to be excited about. But maybe those 4 months can allow me to change myself. I'm afraid that the time alone can destroy what I've built over the past 2 years, But I'm hoping that something better can come along. . . Anyways, it just hurt to know someone can just refuse to acknowledge your existence. Those times you've changed and pushed away your responsibilities. Can someone really be so tempted by love, by worldly desires? So as to push away everything else? . I just hope I don't become like that when the time comes. Thursday, February 10, 2011
-.- I need to do more for others. Not to be so selfish. . . . 5 days. Tuesday, February 8, 2011
- . - It feels numb to not have the most people important here in my life. Especially when I need them at such a critical stage. Everyone's putting so much pressure on me, and I can't deal with it all. People say "Time will heal everything". My answer? It doesn't. Time just goes. And just like time, I'm going off too. 4 months of not being in class may just work. It may not. Think I'm just too naive to believe in something that doesn't exist. So yeah, now slowly you and everyone's stupid beliefs about never lasting friendship got to me. When all of you don't even make the effort. I feel like poly life is so messed up, but somehow you guys can leave me neglected. A time limit is stupid. I'm relying on something that shouldn't even be existent between true friends. Saturday, February 5, 2011
- Love the present - The rest of your life is a long time, and whether you know it or not, It's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate, on bad luck, or bad choices. Or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is. But for the most of time, you get what you give. One question, what's worse? Not getting everything you wished for? Or getting it, but finding out it's not enough? The rest of your life is being shaped right now, with the dreams you chase, the choices you make, and the person you decide to be... the rest of your life is a long time, and the rest of your life starts right now. Friday, February 4, 2011
- . - A: Why hold on so tightly when all you achieve is pain and sorrow? B: "Cause I can't let go. It's too damn hard. A: Is it worth it? B: No. A:Then why let the joys of the past haunt you when you can go out and create pleasant, happier memories for yourself? B: I... It's hard. A: Don't think you're going through this alone, we'll start slow. B: What? A: We'll begin with baby steps, and I will help you through it. I'll hold your hand so if you fall, you have someone there to pick you up, and finally get you through the finishing line. B: A... A: Yeah? B: Thanks for being there. A: Hehe... What are friends for? Is it really that hard for you just to be a friend? 10 days. Wednesday, February 2, 2011
- . - We need change. Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Two days of Hiatus made me think. I'm so sorry. I still miss those days. And my lewd perception failed me, and I was blinded. And I'm trying to give both of us a chance. A fighting chance. Before it's gone forever. |
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I'm losing patience, waiting on you to believe
Cause.. I'm just restless |
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