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In an hour of weakness, you'd still believe; to try
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Sean, 310892ngjunkit@hotmail.com Several years and we were right, The things we did and tried, Experiencing different waves and tides, Even if it meant we’ve cried, It’s inevitable for us, To begin to rust, Breaking the thread wasn’t bad, One of us will bring the thread, One will set us back, Soon, We’ll run on the same track; Should we always miss the chance to see? Beneath the mirror lies a scene Bringing us into a whirl Is that what we deserve? We all know we each own an Otherworld — Just a guy behind the smiles
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009
- The Time It Took - Currently Listening : They'll Never Know - Ross Copperman I doubted myself, for a minute. That the land I was on, was moving. The tremor which lasted for two minutes or so. Do you believe these two minutes could have made a difference in someone else's life? It might have happened to you, to the locals in Singapore or Indonesia. These two minutes, to me, was lost. I found something so sweet, yet hurting. I found myself missing someone I have lost. Someone I've missed while I lost my own way along the road all this time. Earthquake news: http://news.xinhuanet.com/english/2009-09/30/content_12137014.htm P.S. Update on the holidays soon. "We’re supposed to get pass this stage, and one day we can take it back; just take it all back..." - Stories and All - Currently Listening: Feeling A Moment -Feeder  "The Five People You Meet In Heaven" - A definite must-read. I don't think any other books has such an incredible impact. "All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped". "All people make sacrifices and choices, and it is only the most painful of these choices that allows others to live". "Each affects the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one". Tuesday, September 29, 2009
- I'm sorry but we do it again, again and again.- Currently Listening: Re-offender - Travis Sometimes when I look back, it just takes a little bit of it to make me wanna get out of here. This place. This instant. Everything.  This isn’t about being emo or anything, but just taking a look around us and ourselves. Do we actually pay attention to the things that matter? We worry about other unimportant stuff too much, we always tend to overlook simple things like love, life and relationships. Even if it’s a step we take, be it along a park or even through life, we’d always fail to look back and observe the prints we left behind. Those prints are important. The prints are sometimes answers to what we seek. They could be important details, and for some, a story that would prove vital. However, some do not want these answers. They fear it; they cover it up. I’m guilty of it. Saturday, September 26, 2009
- Books - I wanna finish my books. Thursday, September 24, 2009
- In Progress; My random 10 I's- Currently Listening: Afraid - Vanessa Hudgens I need happy hour. I want to try something new. I feel annoyed. I get scared sometimes. I get scared everytime. I want to get a new handphone. I want to act out. I want to find out the truth. I am guilty. I need some luck. Will update soon :) Sunday, September 20, 2009
- Escape - Currently Listening : Disintergration - Jimmy Eat World Went Ice-Skating yesterday! It was a good thing to take our results off our mind, considering our exam results were depressing.  - "Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred. How did it find us? Did it steer into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us, which we now send out children into the world, like we send out soldiers into a war, hoping for their safe return, but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way; consumed by the shadow swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?" - Friday, September 18, 2009
- Below Ground - Currently Listening : Halo - Bethany Joy Lenz I was bored yesterday… So there we were (Mei Hua, Gurvin, Gareth) at Plaza Singapura deciding what movie should we see. The Ugly Truth It isn’t bad, it’s worth a watch :) How embarrassing can it get, when someone excused me in the lift and I said “thank you”. Score huh. Anyways we waited at AMK hub for Clement and Emily, and we ended up playing MONOPOLY! It wasn’t bad :) P.S. SO SORRY ADEL! Didn’t call you :(  "I never promise you a ray of light; I never promise you a sunshine everyday." Wednesday, September 16, 2009
- Work - "Can we take a ride, get out of this place while we still have time? " - My 20 random I's; Frustration - Currently Listening : EZ - Pete Yorn I hate my nose. I think about what if's. I see the lil' people. I feel hearts hurting. I feel I'm in a dream. I think everything's enough. I want to play more games. I need more experiences. I love curtains. I love music. I want to be provoked. I think things could be done. I feel foolish. I am confused. I want to change. I can't. I want to feel safe. I feel guilty. I know what's the definition of lie. I'm it.  - I got everything and everything that I wanted, but in a way, I lost even more. - Wednesday, September 9, 2009
- We have no time - Currently listening: She Has No Time - Keane I'm leavin' Singapore! Be back soon :) I know what it's like to search for something more, that's why we're always running. But then you have someone to go back to. I don't. Monday, September 7, 2009
- Traumatic - Currently listening : Lost - Faith Hill It stinks everywhere I went today. Met up with Kelvin, Yvonne and Jacquelin to go eat Suki Sushi. And I was so friggin’ excited ‘cause there was a lot of choices! But the food was…hard and dry? Everything that went into my mouth tasted odd! The chawanmushi tasted dehydrated, the sweet sauce that we ordered still tasted like soya sauce. The drinks were watery. But enough ‘bout the bad stuff, there were some good things alright! There’s the chicken, and the hot soup (the best!) and some other fried stuff. (Although the pot for the hot soup was used as a dustbin to dump some takoyaki balls away, teehee.) And Jacquelin found hair in her sushi :P … Here comes dessert!  Guess what? Even the ice cream was hard, harder than ice cream was supposed to be. I took 1-2 mins to get a spoonful of ice cream before things became easier to eat. Gosh.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
- Fingers, whistling and chasing dreams - Currently listening : Missing - Evanescence I woke up this afternoon (late) and I thought to myself. What can people do with their fingers? (No dirty thoughts :P) Then YouTube showed me the answer: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4Z7rODCPpQ This video shows you how to whistle with your finger! Go try it out! I almost choked while doing it, and up till now all I've got is becoming breathless -.- It's so cool to whistle like that, esp' as shown in the video about the part without the fingers. So I came across the show "So You Think You Can Dance" and I saw what happened to be the judge criticizing this contestant for not being able to dance. Sucks right? But the contestant's mom scolded the judge and said he didn't have the rights to crush people's dreams just like that. Stupid judge said just one sentence: "This is reality." Are we suppose to stop ourselves from pursuing our dreams because we are limited by our physical capabilities? The judge was true to some extent, although i still hated him. Lol. No matter how hard we try, some of us are just not cut out to be what we want to be. But I'd think that if we were to continue and try even harder, our dreams won't fade until the day we die. I know I'm kinda crapping here, but doesn't it kinda make you wonder?  - Long road back -  This is what happens when I'm bored. I edit pictures. Someone told me: "You don't take pictures, you make 'em." Anyways, here's a video. I wanted to listen to this song for a reason. Just like the song, I hope I'll keep a part of you in me. Saturday, September 5, 2009
Sleepless nights; My 20 random I's. Currently listening: Run - Snow Patrol I can't sleep. I didn't eat much. I have been living on instant noodles for three days. I love the song I'm listening to right now. I haven't went out since Wednesday. I'm currently re-reading Harry Potter. I'm planning to go to the library to get books. I love One Tree Hill. I just got a epiphany. I love and hate my attitude at home. I need to get out of my home. I miss my secondary life. I miss the year 1996. I wanna eat salted eggs. I have no money. I wanna eat Papa Cassava's chips. I wanna watch movies. I wanna find satisfaction in life. I wanna do something meaningful in life. I can't. -I stared in the mirror, and everytime I do I can barely stare at you. I understand I have no choice; let's run for our lives.- - The guy behind the smiles. Thursday, September 3, 2009
- 6 months and still going on - Currently listening to: Kicking and Screaming- Ashlee Simpson It's quite sad, if you guys have been to youtube to watch Ashlee Simpson's video of her being boo-ed off stage after singing her song. I'll kill myself if I was her. I admit I'll give her credit for being so brave, gotta love her daredevil attitude. Watching her screwing up her performance after her band played the wrong song during SNL in 2003 was kinda embarrassment. If it were me, I will ask for a rope and hang myself in front of the audience. Speaking of which, the song I'm listening to was performed by Miley Cyrus! She covered the song (like duhh) and I'm doing a comparison now. Bored huh. Apparently, someone's (hint: Grande!) been bugging me to do a proper update. I wanted to do it tomorrow but what the heck, I'll do it now. It's been 6 months and I've already gone through so much stuff; From school to life, it has all been one whole mini-drama. I've decided to erase my previous posts as they were not exactly posts, you see. It's just one whole bunch of screwed up feelings and moods. I just felt like I'm a disappointment to myself and others as well, Grrr. Just thought I could make up by re-creating a blog for once. Back to life, had a recent celebration of my birthday with Chick and Bernard. Guys, though it's been five years, I still hope we'll stay friends ;D (Yes, I gotta admit I'm touched 'cause they still remembered even after so many things that have happened.) The holidays a chance for me to make good with them! (fingers crossed :P). Currently listening to: Further - Longview This is a really cool song. It owns me now. My life now belonged to Ngee Ann Poly, and I thought I'd end up hanging myself there as well. Apparently, T04 has been a great class! I love them :D I gotta admit, I felt a lil' threatened by the class, but turns out I suck. Just a few months down the road and we had our own ups and downs through the first semester of the school year. Essays, projects and relationships; It has all been one messed up situation. But I found my place here. In this class :) We had our own lil' trips and outings together and I thought we became tight quickly, for a mere 4-5 months. Recently (actually yesterday), I went out with Delphinna and Clement... to the ZOO! I know it's laughable, but you guys should have seen delphinna's face when she had a bee chasing her and Clement's face when a monkey chased him (and us) away. Currently listening : No Boundaries - Kris Allen This song isn't bad. Anyways, i think it's interesting if I wanna post feelings of my class mates :) . . . . . Not now, i think. Hahah. I think I gotta understand a lil' bit more of them before I go posting my actual feelings of them. GOODBYE WORLD! This is going to be lengthy. Or not. Yeah… It’s the end of O level’s. But you know it signifies something else. The end of secondary school. I seriously wanted to get out of there like, a long time ago? Anyways, I was bored so I got to thinking about the days when I was in school. It’s not typical of me to be this reflective. So this is how I feel. Basically, when I think back on the days, I find myself dying in thoughts I’ve never had. We’ve experienced all types of days. Admit it; we do have our bad days, good days. We’ve had our lonely times, emotional times and possibly the ever overwhelming thought that may simply just end everything we have: Giving up. School is what everyone has to go through, even if we sometimes don’t want to. For me, it’s like a rollercoaster ride. I too had my times, period. We do so have our bad times too. I’ve had my share of bad times too. The times when I felt it wasn’t necessary to be at loggerheads with my friends, it happened. Trust me, it may seem as if I do not give a damn about it, but every quarrel I’ve experience really puts me down. I find it hard to tell this to those I’ve quarreled with, and I also find it hard to take. And so it seems, I’m running around in circles, and being trapped deep down. If the people are here to see this, they might find it stupid and gullible. But seriously, I do hope there’s no longer any existing hatred or whatsoever. Also, I’d also want to take the chance to apologize to those I’ve evidently hurt. I’m afraid if I continue to fill myself with feelings of hate and dislike, I’ll crack. To those that I’ve been in contact with but seldom, I just want to really wish you guys the best of luck with your lives, as I know your lives will forever be changed by the presence of the school, and of many others as well. When people say they don’t miss school, I tend to agree, but differently. All we need to do is look deep and relieve the moments when they had fun, that’s when they will love being in school. It’s isn’t the fact that we hate school, we just deny the fact that we love every moment when we’re in school with our peers. Even if it’s for a moment, even if it’s instantaneous, we can still manage to find something that seems to represent the warmth and comfort that school gives. Well, maybe not physically. But school is the place, the centre that presents the chance to connect all of us in one way, or another. I’m not saying that school is totally great; it’s just the fact that the thought of being in secondary school makes us feel secure, makes us feel safe. Because knowing that us being in school together lets us have knowledge of the fact that we do not have to face something more scarier than school. Something more horrifying that we have to encounter: Life outside of school. It really signifies that we’ll no longer be the children we once were. At least we have been given the chance to go through being a child. For others out there who’re still enjoying being a youth, treasure the time now, because it’ll vanish one day. We have so many things that we might take pleasure in being thankful for as well, teachers and friends alike. Sometimes the darkness keeps us apart from one another, but once in a while someone will rescue us. All that we feel and all that we see. The things we do and we think about. We’ll have to walk on from here and out, and we must have pride in whatever we do. We might miss a lot of things, possibly all that we find hard to leave behind. Now thinking back, I’d also feel that it’s everything about school life which makes us feel good about life, and without it, we would be not but an empty barrel. Isn’t it ironic? People criticizing the school for being a place of boredom but it is the school’s beauty that makes us hopeful and the fun we would expect to find in life, and in the near future. Of course, many also feel they do not feel cherished in life. Be it in any places, and any occasions it’s just worthless to them. But if they take the time too and try to explore their inner self, they would find it sad that they have missed out on a lot of things in life, particularly school life. Some think if they try to take on new experiences, they would end up with nothing but scars and possibly enlarge the existing black hole that suffocates and absorbs their every feeling in their hearts and minds. But if they could just do something that is simple enough, they would think they’d missed out on every event: Embracing life. A discovery I’ve made throughout these years has also indeed been etched in my mind.We all have imperfections, but if we make the effort to overlook these flaws and see each and every one person without prejudices, we actually do find good things in them as well. Our imperfections are what made us perfect in each of our very own special and simple way. Throw away the studies, and throw out the pressures in life such as wealth and physical assets, we all are actually just people. People that are able to live and love like regular folks. We really would miss out the good things that surround us, even in this possible second. Now we harbor thoughts about life and the future. We’ll never know what lies in store for us. It’s not the thought of failing exams that scares us, and it isn’t the thought of whether we’ll be healthy and things alike. It’s the thought of the future that terrifies us. Learning to embrace it is one thing, but to know whether we have the courage to face up to these possible experiences is another. It might be tough, but we should abandon the thought of fear and walk on. |
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I'm losing patience, waiting on you to believe
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