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Sean, 310892ngjunkit@hotmail.com Several years and we were right, The things we did and tried, Experiencing different waves and tides, Even if it meant we’ve cried, It’s inevitable for us, To begin to rust, Breaking the thread wasn’t bad, One of us will bring the thread, One will set us back, Soon, We’ll run on the same track; Should we always miss the chance to see? Beneath the mirror lies a scene Bringing us into a whirl Is that what we deserve? We all know we each own an Otherworld — Just a guy behind the smiles Archives
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Thursday, September 3, 2009
This is going to be lengthy. Or not. Yeah… It’s the end of O level’s. But you know it signifies something else. The end of secondary school. I seriously wanted to get out of there like, a long time ago? Anyways, I was bored so I got to thinking about the days when I was in school. It’s not typical of me to be this reflective. So this is how I feel. Basically, when I think back on the days, I find myself dying in thoughts I’ve never had. We’ve experienced all types of days. Admit it; we do have our bad days, good days. We’ve had our lonely times, emotional times and possibly the ever overwhelming thought that may simply just end everything we have: Giving up. School is what everyone has to go through, even if we sometimes don’t want to. For me, it’s like a rollercoaster ride. I too had my times, period. We do so have our bad times too. I’ve had my share of bad times too. The times when I felt it wasn’t necessary to be at loggerheads with my friends, it happened. Trust me, it may seem as if I do not give a damn about it, but every quarrel I’ve experience really puts me down. I find it hard to tell this to those I’ve quarreled with, and I also find it hard to take. And so it seems, I’m running around in circles, and being trapped deep down. If the people are here to see this, they might find it stupid and gullible. But seriously, I do hope there’s no longer any existing hatred or whatsoever. Also, I’d also want to take the chance to apologize to those I’ve evidently hurt. I’m afraid if I continue to fill myself with feelings of hate and dislike, I’ll crack. To those that I’ve been in contact with but seldom, I just want to really wish you guys the best of luck with your lives, as I know your lives will forever be changed by the presence of the school, and of many others as well. When people say they don’t miss school, I tend to agree, but differently. All we need to do is look deep and relieve the moments when they had fun, that’s when they will love being in school. It’s isn’t the fact that we hate school, we just deny the fact that we love every moment when we’re in school with our peers. Even if it’s for a moment, even if it’s instantaneous, we can still manage to find something that seems to represent the warmth and comfort that school gives. Well, maybe not physically. But school is the place, the centre that presents the chance to connect all of us in one way, or another. I’m not saying that school is totally great; it’s just the fact that the thought of being in secondary school makes us feel secure, makes us feel safe. Because knowing that us being in school together lets us have knowledge of the fact that we do not have to face something more scarier than school. Something more horrifying that we have to encounter: Life outside of school. It really signifies that we’ll no longer be the children we once were. At least we have been given the chance to go through being a child. For others out there who’re still enjoying being a youth, treasure the time now, because it’ll vanish one day. We have so many things that we might take pleasure in being thankful for as well, teachers and friends alike. Sometimes the darkness keeps us apart from one another, but once in a while someone will rescue us. All that we feel and all that we see. The things we do and we think about. We’ll have to walk on from here and out, and we must have pride in whatever we do. We might miss a lot of things, possibly all that we find hard to leave behind. Now thinking back, I’d also feel that it’s everything about school life which makes us feel good about life, and without it, we would be not but an empty barrel. Isn’t it ironic? People criticizing the school for being a place of boredom but it is the school’s beauty that makes us hopeful and the fun we would expect to find in life, and in the near future. Of course, many also feel they do not feel cherished in life. Be it in any places, and any occasions it’s just worthless to them. But if they take the time too and try to explore their inner self, they would find it sad that they have missed out on a lot of things in life, particularly school life. Some think if they try to take on new experiences, they would end up with nothing but scars and possibly enlarge the existing black hole that suffocates and absorbs their every feeling in their hearts and minds. But if they could just do something that is simple enough, they would think they’d missed out on every event: Embracing life. A discovery I’ve made throughout these years has also indeed been etched in my mind.We all have imperfections, but if we make the effort to overlook these flaws and see each and every one person without prejudices, we actually do find good things in them as well. Our imperfections are what made us perfect in each of our very own special and simple way. Throw away the studies, and throw out the pressures in life such as wealth and physical assets, we all are actually just people. People that are able to live and love like regular folks. We really would miss out the good things that surround us, even in this possible second. Now we harbor thoughts about life and the future. We’ll never know what lies in store for us. It’s not the thought of failing exams that scares us, and it isn’t the thought of whether we’ll be healthy and things alike. It’s the thought of the future that terrifies us. Learning to embrace it is one thing, but to know whether we have the courage to face up to these possible experiences is another. It might be tough, but we should abandon the thought of fear and walk on. |
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